Life's tough get a helmet!!

Life gets harder the older we get. It is inevitable, I am figuring out. I know I have said this in like every blog post but this past couple of months have been quite intense. But no matter how tough it has gotten I have had a few friend who have made it all bearable.

Ashley has been through thick and thin with me and pretty much knows me better than any one on this earth. When I cry she cries when shes sad I am sad. I dont know anyone else who I can laugh so hard that I cry, almost die, then laugh and get so serious only to laugh again two seconds later.... all the while completely understand the whole ordeal.... and trying to smell her jacket. I wish I lived closer to her I miss being able to see her everyday of life.

Jackie is so far away but one of my favorite people. I remember one time her Mom said to me... "It doesnt matter if you ever see each other again you are sisters and will live together for eternity one day" It just reminded me how much our short times together have changed my life. You have such a great view of the world and get me no matter how long it has been since our last visit. We pick up right where we left off. Not a one has come close to being that influential in such a short amount of time. I charish our moments and know that there will be PLENTY more to come because we will have all eternity to be sisters.

Lindsey all though I live farther away and dont get home as much as I should she has brightened my life by being there when ever I need her. I am sorry that I am not there for her as much as I should be but I hope she knows that she is and always will be my best friend.... plus I have never been able to convince another soul that there was another world in my closet or that the beany babies come alive when your back is turned.

Ryan, ups and downs, break ups and make ups he has turned in to one of my best friends. He has been in my life longer than anyone who isnt family, although he doesnt quite remember a lot of it he likes to pretend though.... He is always the first to offer help when I want it and jump in and help when I need it (but dont want it).

Shelly, Danny,Christie, and Tim have all made my college life better. I know at times I can be a real pain but they all stick with me. I have been with Shelly before she dropped the MI and added the Y and I know that She will always be right down the road when I need her. Danny has made my house not so lonely on days when you just want to be lonely. I thank him every day for his random drop ins not allowing me to cry more than necessary by feeding Mac and cheese till I almost exploded. Christie is always so willing to do what it takes to make me smile she is the most caring roommate ever I couldnt have gotten more lucky. And last but oh so not least Tim can make me laugh when no one else in the world can. Its great to have a friend that lasts and he is one of the few who can withstand times test.

Amy and Raul, my newest additions and a pretty vital part I laugh like I never have with you.... Booty dancing and church you make my life good all around I cant wait for more great times together.

Casey so much to say but none of it would do him justice. Miss him more than life and wish he was here/

And Finally (I know this is so long ) Micah, he makes me smile and I like it.... which is all im gonna say about that ;]

Thanks so much for all of my amazing friends who love me and get me threw lifes crazy times! They are my helmet in this crazy world!

Keeping the Faith in Jeans and a Vest

The other night I was talking with a friend about the past couple of months and how crazy they have been. I recapped the stress and tears and all that other crazy stuff that constitutes life as a college student and my seemingly new found confusion towards life. Lately I have had such a mental block when I try to figure out my future. What to do with school and work and church and romance... it all seems so impossible to figure out. How do you keep going on when it seems to much..... Now in situations like this people tend to turn to typical answers like God answers prayers... or things will work out... or you will know what to do when the time comes but what did this great boy do... He grabbed my computer and put on Bon Jovi... long hair vest wearing Bon Jovi... Keep the Faith... the music video. Oh how it made my night. I guess the message of the song was similar to all of those listed above but the delivery was a thousand times better. Who doesnt love laughing at guys with bad hair and a friend singing to you when you are down. it made my night =]... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eZQyVUTcpM4

Good Times with Good Friends

So last night we had a Jersey Shore party... for those of you who don't know what that is... it involves big hair, loud mouths, crazy dance moves and little clothing. Jersey Shore is this ridiculous reality show that plays on MTV. It is a house full of Italians that love to fist pump and tan, and for some reason my friends fell in love. It was so much fun we all looked so silly. I tried to dye my hair for the night but it really only turned out slightly less blonde. Thankfully the stuff washed out....

Hello 2010

GOODBYE 2009 HELLO 2010!

This year has began with quite a BANG! With an amazing eye opening trip so see two of my favorite people... one of which is now a married woman I realized how crazy this past year has truely been .As I look back at this past year I realize how much I have learned. I never could have imagined I would end up where I am today with these experiences and lessons. I have learned that people in general will come and go through out life. Sometimes its sad, sometimes its unexpected, sometimes its bad and sometimes it is a VERY good thing. The ones that are important will always come back even if it takes years but they are usually worth the wait. I have realized that people are going let me down and I, in return will let others down. I know that through these let downs we get to grow and adapt. With out dispointments we could understand how uterly amazing it is when some one comes through for us. I know I have disapointed a lot of people this past year but sometimes we have to let others down to figure out whats best for us in the long run. I have learned excatly what I DONT want out of life which I hope will eventually lead to me knowing what I DO want.... But then agian I am a woman so who knows if Ill ever get there.... I might have an Incling of who I want to spend it with though =] But before I start rambling the most important thing is thatI have a stronger knowlege today that God lives and knows me better than anyone ever will and not only knows me but loves me too. No matter how stupid I get or how far I fall He is waiting for me to pick myself up and come back to him and I couldnt ask for anything better.

PS These are some pictures of my amazing trip to MIAMI =]

Fix You Up

I felt you in my heart before I even met you... I felt you in my life before I ever thought to.

Love...

It holds many meanings to many people. It is filled with connotations and expectations. It is blissfully happy and tragically sad all wrapped into one little word that can make or break a person. It is thrown around so much but not meant enough. To be in love... it is a glimpse of the eternities it holds unimaginable happiness for those who Cherish it as they should. Love is not a game, it is not a step that you must take, it not something you check off on your list.... Oh we have held hands and kissed and i know i need to be married soon so i must love her.... It can not be planned and once said, it is out there and it must be dealt with. The whole idea of it is that love opens you up to a person in a way no one else will ever know. You will never love another as you have loved me and I the same.

Even now I think about things and I know they were not right and never could have been and I really did not even want them to be but regardless love is still there. It is not pinning I want you need you love it is pleasant happy I can move on and that you can I can not make it leave and I would not if I could. I opened my self up and it was good until it wasn't any more. I have learned that not every one is going to tell you the truth and most of the time people are just as confused or more so than you. We are all broken the point of love is to find someone who loves you as you are and as you will be. Someone who will fix you up better than you were before while you do the same for them. Until then i am happy as I am now =]

JUMP!!!!!

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

Maria Robinson



So this might blow your mind but I have officially deiced that there is no such thing as a wrong choice. You can pray, ponder and list pros and cons but in the end you are still left with that same choice starring you in the face. As I have been pondering where to go with life I have often passed up awesome opportunities in fear that it was the wrong choice. SO with this conclusion in mind I am jumping on in. Life, you can throw what ever you want at me but I am moving forward. Every bad choice I have made before has taught me an amazing life lesson and the good choices have left me with great memories. Either way God put us on this earth to gain experiences and learn. How can I do that when I am constantly looking for the right answer, sometimes there is no right answer. Cut and dry, black and white... they don't exists there is always an exception, always another view. Whats right for you is not right for me and whats right for me now wont be right in a year. So I'm throwing all that to the wind and taking the chance. I would much rather look back and say wow that was dumb than to think what if I had. So here I go ready to dive on in head first =]

A Whole New World...

"The grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."
~Allan K. Chalmers

So I am now on my fifth week as a real life college junior and it is thrilling. The classes are challenging, the people are interesting and the campus is so much fun. I had a lovely job interview today with a charming lady by the name of Heather. It was going oh so well till she asked the dreaded question... What are your weaknesses? AHHH I knew it was coming and could not think of anything..... Blank.... so what does Sarah do... why BABBLE of course. But in the end I think I evened it out. maybe.... kinda... The job would be perfect but God has a plan so well see where he leads me. If I get this job I will get to live rent free WOOO. I really can not wait to move to Orlando. I happy as can be walking around on campus but when I leave to go home this horrible trapped feeling begins to ascend over my body... no good. When it all come down to it though I know I am in the right place for me. Despite all the kicking and screaming it took to get me where I am I know Heavenly Father has a plan for me and it will lead me to happiness now and in the long run.