Alternate Reality

Sometimes what could have been makes us realize how good what is... IS!!!!

I had a dream during one of the BEST naps ever today and it made me realize how lucky I am. Have you ever just thought about how different your life would be if you made this choice or that choice? Well lately there has been a lot of that going on in my brain! I guess a break up can do that to you. But to day I had a glimpse of WHO and WHERE I could have been if I turned left instead of right. I am so thankful for all of my decisions, whether good or bad, that lead me to where I am today. I have the best friends, a good job, I am almost a college graduate, and I am having more fun than I have been able to basically ever. I know Heavenly Father knows me personally and that he leads me to where he wants me. The more I study the gospel the more I know I am making the right decisions for myself even if they are not the popular ones. Its better to be single and growing than in a relationship that stagnant.

I would just like to take a brief second of your time to say: ABI, GELI, and BROOKE you make my life complete... That is all

Harry Potter Problem

It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities. ~J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, 1999, spoken by the character Albus Dumbledore

Top Tens Reasons Why I apparently have a HP problem:


10. I tend to drift off in normal conversation to think about where I left off in the book...

9. Every time boyfriend offers to rent a movie I jump up and down and ask... "Can we get Harry Potter"...

8. I get excited when I hear anyone make a slight HP reference and shout " HA its not just me" ( guilty conscience I think)

7. In church when one of the speakers was talking about Jesus.. I leaned over to boyfriend and said... OH just like Dumbeldore...

6. When KLH was teaching she made a reference to HP and all the sudden every thing made much more sense.

5.The thought MAN Hogwarts would be way more exciting than UCF has crossed my mind.

4. I hide in my car on lunch breaks so no one will interrupt my HP reading time.

3. I bought tickets to got see HP7 last week.

2.I was overheard today having this discussion:

Brad: are you going to the movie tonight?

Me: DUHHHH

Brad: Sweet, I cant wait

Me: I LOVE HARRY POTTER

Brad: You secretly want to be Hermonie?

Me: PSHHH no Id want to be Ginny cause she gets to marry Harry

The discussion may have continued with an slight argument over who would be the coolest character to be/ date....

1.Me and the Abster MAY have been caught reciting spells and wishing they worked.... on more than one occasion

So I don't know if these really prove I have a problem... They seem totally normal to me but to the unHP fans I seem to be going overboard....

FiVE FRiDAY

FiVE THiNGS TO GET YOU CAUGHT UP
1. School is amazing.... could ask for anything better except maybe more hours in the day cause it sure takes up a lot of it!
2. I am trying to be more positive... I don't know why I have such a hard time with this lately I swear I am a happy person but these awful thoughts and mean words keep falling out of my mouth before I can stop them.... My new favorite phrase seems to be... sorry I'm TRYING not to be so negative :)

3. Work sucks.... It seems my infamous job is slowly sucking the life out of me... litterly can anyone say panic attack... cause I have been saying it quite often lately as I spend almost ALL my free time looking for new opportunities. BUT with the note of being more POSITIVE I have like 3 job interviews this week AND one internship interview :)

4. My credit card number got STOLEN!! That's right the number not the card who does that!!!! Some really clever thieves that's who, they don't even need my card to steal my money. Crasy Crasy CRASY. If only I didn't want to be an honest person I could be rich!
5. Scripture Study.... Me and Micah started a scripture study group on Sunday nights and it is the coolest thing! It is so nice to talk with my friends about Christ and his Gospel. All my friends know so much about so many different things. Its great to ask questions to people that understand!

FiVE THiNGS i AM LOOKiNG FORWARD TOO
1. ITS ALMOST TIME TO CARVE A PUMPKIN.... you probably already knew that one but it is one of my MOST favorite things in fall.... Its has taken all I have not to have already have 10 pumpkins with different expressions sitting on my front porch.
2. Thanksgiving.... EAT ALL DAY... how could you not look forward to this I mean really people. I truly do NOT know how I am not 500 pounds.
3. Reading my book... I'm a nerd its official I dream of sitting all day outside in the sun and reading a good book.
4. The COLD weather... I cant Wait till its chilly out and I take long Sunday "adventures" aka walking through the neighborhood sitting by the "lake" aka the retention pound. Oh and did I mention I get to wear my pretty pretty coat again... I love the cold!
5.New Opportunities... Enough said ;)

Sugar Fast

"Life is uncertain. Eat dessert first.”Ernetine Ulmer

"When you look at a cupcake, you've got to smile." Anne Byrn

The other day my fellow Sarah suggested this wonderful idea.... A sugar fast. Sounds like a great idea right? A while month of no desserts or unnecessary sweets. A health cleanse from our sugar filled lives... Easy enough right. Well lest just list how the first 3 weeks have gone and you be the judge... Week one:

No sugar... we decide breakfast foods are OK aka pancakes and waffles here I come

Week 2

Abi eats a candy

I eat cookie from missionaries.. maybe two or thee... but they were made by the lords servants so doesn't count

I eat another cookie cause well I already failed this week

IHOP trip aka breakfast for dinner HELLO syrup

Week 3

Thought Id start it off strong with a good ol cupcake for lunch and Muffins for dinner

When I first heard the Idea I laughed and said "what would I eat then?" But slowly one by one all my friends joined the fast and yes eventually I gave in.... But only when I was told "You can NEVER do that!!".....Oh well cant win them all Guess Abi was right. Anyways one of the sisters suggested a fruits and veggie Binge... Maybe I can do that one. Epic fail on sugar fast 2010

Not So Blonde... Blonde

When I was little all I really wanted to be when I grew up was the little mirmaid... I used to think up much more socially acceptable answers like a docotr or an actress. But what my heart has always desired was to be just that... an underwater princess. So on that note I have taken a plunge into the dark side... Im seeing red that is... I have taken a break from my oh so blonde roots and gone red... Dont worry guys Ill be back to blonde soon just taking a break to be a little more like my idol.

My Love

So as I was walking the other night I realized that I have some pretty big expectations out of my life with no desire to get them. As I look at what those I look up to are accomplishing and have accomplished in their life I am coming to realize that I want more..... I want to find that thing that I can do and the thing that I will LOVE more than anything else...I have no idea what it is yet but I figured I could start with things that I know I love already.... and maybe these will lead me to what I am looking for...

But the number one thing that I love in my life is the gospel of Jesus Christ. I know that he loves me and the closer I get to him the closer I will be to pure happiness in all that I do.

Creating an adventure

Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.

~ Helen Keller

I don't want my life to be nothing so I am taking these wise words and making each day an adventure. Stepping out side of my comfort zone to create a life which is worth living. In relief society this week we went over President Uchtdorf talk Happiness, Your Heritage. He speaks about the desires of the human soul and our yearning to create. He says "Creation brings deep satisfaction and fulfillment. We develop ourselves and others when we take unorganized matter into our hands and mold it into something of beauty." This got me thinking how can I encompass my desire to make each day an adventure while following this advice. I am making goal today to create something each day whether it is an amazing artistic masterpiece (which I feel is highly unlikely) or a smile on some ones face (much more likely). I want to live like I am not afraid of who I am and help other people feel loved and happy and maybe the dark rain cloud over my head will go away. "The more you trust and rely upon the Spirit, the greater your capacity to create. That is your opportunity in this life and your destiny in the life to come." Heavenly Father wants me to be happy and created me so that I can be that way and that I can one day create like him. I can not wait to see what this life has instore for me =]